Let’s keep looking

“If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.” -Steve Jobs

I posted this on Facebook yesterday and many people liked it. It made me wonder. We’re all looking for something. Some have found it, others haven’t, others think they have and others think they never will. And then someone with greatness such as Steve Jobs comes along and everyone has the urge to believe. I think life is a balance between fighting for your dreams and being happy in the meantime. This is an art. But there is something I’ve learned after years of lessons: no matter how much you have or where you are…you can be happy with what you have, right here and now. Believe you me; this is hard for me to say. I cannot seem to make sense of the place I’m in, people confuse me, love eludes me, dreams haunt me, money sometimes controls me, and decisions overwhelm me. But almost always you are where you are, you have what you have, you’ve done what you’ve done, you are who you are and there’s nothing better than making the most out of it. If you can change something you’re not happy with, do it. If you truly feel in your heart that you can’t, make your peace with it.

I was born a non-conformist and in some ways it’s a blessing because I do question all things. But in other ways it’s a curse because I find myself complaining about what is wrong in my life. Complaining is a plague I am currently in rehab for. The person that knows and loves me the most pointed out how much I complain and it slowly entered my brain for it to slowly understand how destructive it can be.

I see many people settle but then I also know how it feels to feel pressured by society and concepts in the brain lodged in since childhood and I get it. It’s not as easy as it seems but it should be simple. We should do what makes us happy, keep looking for what is best, always have faith, enjoy the moment and spend time with loved ones. I don’t know much but I know that much. I do waste time worrying about things I simply shouldn’t. But awareness is the first step towards change. If I don’t know what I’m feeling or what I’m doing, then there’s no way I can change it. I know when I’m worried, I know when I’m afraid, I know my mistakes, I know my lessons. And for now I want to enjoy the moment whilst looking for my dreams. I want to believe that anything is possible no matter where I was born. I want to stay true to my heart and not settle for anything but the best and what is right. And I want to know that everything happens for a reason and that if something didn’t work out it simply was not for me.

I want to know what is wrong but be able to be happy anyhow. I want to inspire others not just by what I do but by who I am. The way my mother has inspired me, the way Tori has as well. Greatness is inspiring. Steve was obviously great because of who he seemed to be and what he accomplished. But heroes are not just the ones everyone knows about. Heroes are you and me. Being happy and peaceful in the midst of madness is a miracle. Doing what is right for you is courageous. Let’s keep looking. Let’s.