There isn’t much

I haven’t much to say but must speak. I am silent here standing by myself and I feel responsible. I feel I must keep calm and carry on. There have been obstacles and monsters…they didn’t kill me, so I must continue. I thought the monsters were my friends and I was wrong.

Today there isn’t much and that means a whole lot. Today I’m letting go of what is beyond my control.

It is as important to let go as it is to act. It is as crucial to be silent as it is to speak up.

There isn’t much but I’m doing this for someone beside myself. I no longer want to be selfish but selfless. Old habits die hard and letting go of myself will be complicated. I want to be better and know I can do it all; so can you.

Even when there isn’t much to do or say; move forward, start over and don’t look back. Know you’re not here to question but to live the unknown. Stop asking yourself why and simply think how.

There isn’t much left and yet here I am, giving you whatever is left of me. I trust you will take care of my soul better than I ever could. I love you and I trust you.


All I need

My life has gotten to the point where it all has seemed to go wrong, but oddly enough it feels right. Love was stolen from me, promises broken & obstacles decided to get a wee bit bigger. But it feels O.K. Why? I wonder. Well, it’s all inside us. We keep thinking it’s outside but we have the power and we choose how to fight and how strong we will be.

I feel blessed. Blessed because whenever I resist making the hard but right choice, I linger…I wait and then it’s handled for me. It’s scary how much I’m loved. I have angels making the decisions, taking the plunge when courage escapes me.

Today one more thing was ripped away. It was something that kept me safe in the cage. It was something that wasn’t ugly but it definitely wasn’t right. Life is unfolding itself in a way I couldn’t even imagine and it’s time to step up. It’s time to choose passion. Even if I don’t know how it’ll all unfold, I know it’s time and that’s why peace has settled in. Peace is always the best indicator.

There are many things I want but there isn’t much I need. What I do need is love, understanding, respect and expressing myself through what God gave me. I have a lot to say and I will be heard. I’m ready to stop the silence. I’m ready to be happy with what is mine and what is right. I don’t need much and realizing this has been the greatest treasure I’ve ever found. Life is here and now. What comes next is entirely up to me. I have my mentors, my friends and my weapons to fight. I’m good to go. I’m strong and ready to fight. Ready to survive, to thrive. I know my survival will serve a greater purpose and that’s all I really need.